snoppyworld

As I think about how else can I UPDATE about my life, i feel, it is probably v difficult.

Due to complexity, due to the horrible situations that is not worth mentioning, due to BUSINESS, due to many many more...But i Will try to share..i will..

Relationships have always been my problem. Or rather, affects me.
I think god for giving me the gift to listen. I really do listen to the people i talk to with my heart. I really do.

listening to stories. I try not to judge.sometimes i m bold in critics but i really dunno how others feel?good or bad?

Citing the recent eg. You have told me so so much. i feel happy yet afraid.

feel sick talking..will continue soon..

I know i hate.

But i dunno if i m being to narrow minded and too hard on myself.

maybe it is just life that we see things differently.

nothing is absolute?

for now, i m just being a audience that refuses to be noticed.

1. To give myself TIME.

2. To breathe.

3. To exercise.

4. To stay positive.

5. To start new day reading your word and end each day with YOU only.

6. To keep an open mind.

7. To have faith.

8. To share.

9. To not envy.

10. To compare but not overly indulge in comparison.

Most of all, I will listren to YOU!:)

There is a thin line between the following 2:

1. Being Tolerant for you are still new.

2. Being Mistreated for you are new.

Now, how do you differentiate?

I have no answer.I really pray for wisdom.

When my life becomes slightly hard to be understood, hard to describe, i guess, this is a good platform to just write!:)

I was reminded of the movie i watched with a fren.

Visited your hideout, my dear gal, and touched to write something short for u.

From dajie to you:
There was a song that goes, "make my heart, tender and pure. Make me strong, help me endure...hold me close, with YOU i can. Lead me on, and i will go. Lead me on, and i will follow..."Just praying that he will lift your spirits up, give you strength so that you will not feel weary anymore!He will lead you on, yes he will!He is holding you close, with HIM, you can.Into his hands, we commit our anxieties...amen."

Indeed, life can get tough. Indeed, having faith is challenging. Indeed, God still never fails.

Maybe we do not get wat we ask. Maybe we ask for the wrong things. But, as reminded on sunday, god is not passive, god is pro active. If he will not give just cos we asked, instead, giving us the best, beyond what we ask.

Dear god, i am really weak now, into your hands i commit all these suppressed feelings, worries, weakness. Help me!amen.

 You, made sugar bread for me.
You, bought the "miracle water" for me when i always had fever.
You, bothered to rub the boiled egg on my body to relieve heatiness.
You, walked the miles just to get cheap things for me.
You, expressed your pain for my endless crying when i had diarrhoea at 3mths old through nagging at mom to give me xiao mai zhao.
You, slept w me, coax me, nursed me and fed me.
You, brought me wherever you went.
You, held on to your life and only breathe your last after 4june 1999.

I will remember 5june 1999. 

 Thoughts are running wild. Wondering and it kills me to feel hurt when u are upset and i dunno why.

Been crazy period. gave myself a breather but i know i should not have. Vicious cycle.I can only pick myself up from here.

What do we need most when we are feeling we are rotting away?Let me tell u what i need. HUG!heee..alrite, i am NOT hinting..:)

Thank you lord!You are awesome!!

I totally enjoyed the conversation i had with a close fren. i rambled. You rambled. 

i know there was no solutions offered for each other's problem. But, there was sth we both hold on tightly to!That is, god.

Thanks for reminding me to pray. Thanks for telling me how u feel. Thanks for taking the initiative to try to communicate with me!

i do feel bad i always dun seem to be of help to you, but i have also learnt, we have to bring our anxieties to god. We can only listen!we can only obey!

to quote YOU:"such things are meant to be chewed on digested and assimilated." and i added on to say, "so, dun just chew ya.talk out loud to ppl u trust!so digestion is smooth."i will start chewing. hope u are too!:)

 你不了解你让我很痛。

为什么你就不懂？你让我反胃。你让我受到心灵上的折磨。

之前的好将会成为历史。

好聚好散吧！我没有力了！

今天将是个了断！